Take A Closer Look

Hello friends
Been awhile since I posted, things have been hectic with the surgery and now in Rehabilitation. My point is..." life does get hectic" and things are lost. Minutes pass, hours disappear, and soon whole days are nothing more than a blurr. Every now and then though something, maybe just a small thing but something occurs and gives you a jolt and when you look at it closer..."You Discover".

My son Scott is married to a lovely, sweet and wonderful woman by the name of Amber. I have always admired her and thought she was a special person. I have always been happy that my Scott had met Amber and became best friends and then married.

Amber admittedly is not a savy Internet person that some people have became. She does not have that kind of time with 2 children, 2 paying jobs, one babysitting and another working in the bakery of a grocery store in Florida. Plus all she does for her congregation and her family. So her extra time is catching a cat nap or getting a little time to herself at the gym.

The thing I discovered is that Amber has a wonderful talent of letter writing. Her letters are vibrant and delicious with describing the activities of my grandchildren (Katie Kat and Buddy Boo). Now this may seem trivial to most but for me it has touched my heart to be able to read her letters over and over and be able to picture exactly what she has written. Her details of their activities and new words, and sayings have brought life to her letters.She seems to always know what I need especially during this time of recuperation and being so far away in Germany. For her to spend  few of her precious moments of time writing a letter to me is the icing n the cake as well as the Kat's meow!  For her to spend the time in writing to let me know these things tells me one really important thing...She loves me a lot. How sweet and wonderful is that. To Amber "Thank you" for your love. Mimi

The Things I Have Discovered: Oh What a Feeling

The Things I Have Discovered: Oh What a Feeling: "As I become older I seem to think about certain things more.'What the heck was I thinking' seems to be a recurring sentence in my thoughts l..."

Oh What a Feeling

As I become older I seem to think about certain things more."What the heck was I thinking" seems to be a recurring sentence in my thoughts lately. I always think why did no one stop me from some of the craziness I did. Don't get me wrong I wasn't totally dumb, but definately did some dumb things.
To be honest I think about the wrongs I did to others and sometimes it over flows my heart wanting to make those wrongs right. Like most people I think we are afraid of rejection of our apologies, but at least we tried?? Or do we suffer the guilt as a punishment for doing the wrong? I think "is this Hell", you know...like okay I have done wrong, hurt people and because I feel so guilty and lie awake sometimes tormented by the guilt that this is our Hell. If it is then "well done God". I love FaceBook and how it allows you to contact the people from your past or they contact you. It's a great feeling and exciteing to reconnect to the past.Then you lay awake and think of all the things that occured during the time of the friendship, you begin to see things that happened during that time of your life, maybe it involved this person or maybe it didn't. You just start looking back and you suddenly see. The Good, The Bad and The Evil! Ahhh that is life right, we all feel it, we touch on it. Well I have discovered...you have to forgive yourself...somehow someway forgive yourself. I still think you have to say your apologies, for now though I am just writing letters and putting them in envelopes. Don't think I will mail, still afraid of rejection. What about you? How do you forgive yourself, how do you apologize? and BTW if you read this and I ever did anything to hurt you...please know "I am truly sorry" and know that I mean it from the very bottom of my heart.

Summer Fun and Learning

Clay

Have you ever wondered about your grandparents and who they really were and what they really liked to do? Some of us were lucky enough (like myself ) to know my grandparents really well. I grew up in their home and I have always said all of the good things about me were a reflection of my Grandma (Abby Turney).
This summer my oldest grandson Clay came to Germany and spent 2 months with me. I learned so much about him and from him, but I also learned a lot about me. Clay is 18 and just graduated from high school. He is a beautiful person bith inside and out.
We ate sushi in Harrods at the Krispy Kreme Donut Counter, We saw Big Ben together a first for both. We climbed the Eiffel Tower (never do that again). We enjoyed French dinners, British Pubs, German parties, and the most amazing conversations. Funny...he did not know that his beloved Uncle Joe was my brother??? I find this funny since Joe and I are very close and we just assumed the kids knew we were brother and sister.
My precious Clay learned I like Amy Winehouse's music and why, I learned he wanted to be a Fireman, or at least look into becoming one. He learned I am inpatient and I learned he was as well, (ahhh genetics) LOL.
I think of my Grandparents often, even though they left this life many years ago, I still see their faces as if it was yesterday. My discovery...how much I am going to miss my own Mother and how hard it must be for her to not be able to call her Mom or see her and visit with her. I know she must ache for her Mother because I ache for mine sometimes. I never thought about it until this past summer and really saw how much I will miss my dear sweet Momma

The Beginning of The Middle to The End

I have always wanted to start a blog, ever since I first discovered them! I have seen some cool ones, some that have a specific subject, some not so interesting and some that just blew me away. I have always felt that I wanted to share with my sisters, brother's, cousins, son's and especially and (maybe the real reason for blog) my grandchildren.

So, as time goes on I hope to share all the things I have discovered, from the past, the future and mostly the now.

I have no dillusions that anyone will really give a rat's behind about what I have to say, but getting it out there really gives the heart a good feeling. I hope those that do read enjoy and please feel free to post your thoughts and maybe let me know what you discovered.